Sunday, January 11, 2015

I haven't had a smoke in years, but I will catch a drag if you are smoking

My resolutions for 2015 are the usual:

Draw more, write more, take more pictures. Finish most, if not all the books I have bought over the past few years that I haven't read yet. This is a long list, and I would like to get through at least 50 books this year. Exercise 3x a week and generally be more active and healthier.

I have formed a few unhealthy habits. Ones I probably won't be able to break in 2015.

I think my biggest problem is coming back home for long periods for breaks and being overwhelmed from all the memories before college. I can't help but stay up too late listening to music, drawing, or reading, things I used to do often in high school. Just staying up late to think. Mostly about old friends, what ifs.

I need to make more time for things I enjoy doing. I have time. Saying I don't have enough is complete bs.

I can't remember the last time I picked up my violin or guitar.

I've been feeling stressed because I want to transfer to a better college. Because now I'm double majoring in two subjects that I have no interest in spending the rest of my life doing. I don't know what I'm going to do after college. And it terrifies me.

But I know everything will work out. I'll find something. Everything will be okay.

At almost 1 1/2 years since my last post, I still listen to Keaton Henson when I'm feeling down.