Monday, August 27, 2012

"I promise, that one day, everything's going to be better for you."

It's hard to believe that I'm sitting in my dorm room writing a post. I'm all moved in, and now I just have to wait until Wednesday for classes to start. I made this blog when I was a freshman in high school, and now I'm a freshman in college. I can't believe how time flies by.

I'm hoping to travel back home tonight to visit with a few friends. I'm not really homesick, but I do miss them. It really sucks when you meet someone new the week before you go off to college, and you want to hang out with him to get to know him, and he wants to hang out with you too, but it's difficult to go back home a lot and he can't drive here all the time. Most of our plans to meet tonight have fallen through, but we'll make it work.

I've been really good lately. Things have gotten a lot better.

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

"I'm done, really, everything is so "cool" now. I just want it all to stop. I mean, nobody talks about anything anymore. They just regurgitate everything they see on TV, or hear on the radio or watch on the web. When was the last time you had a real conversation with someone without somebody texting or looking at a screen or a monitor over your head? You know, a conversation about something that wasn't celebrities, gossip, sports, or pop politics. You know, something important, something personal."

I've been 18 for more than a month. The biggest change I have faced so far: My phone can be used for things other than social networking sites and Angry Birds. Such as, an actual phone.

I have less than three weeks of summer left. Unfortunately, most of it has been spent on Tumblr and YouTube. Soon I will be up at college making choices for myself, not trying to please anyone else. One of my biggest decisions (which I hope won't turn into a regret), is not auditioning for the orchestra. I still want to play, but I want it to be fun. I don't want to feel pressured doing something I love to do, and that's how I've felt all summer. I've practiced every day trying to perfect the audition excerpts. If it takes me that long, how am I going to survive the school year figuring out the music while studying for my classes? I don't regret working on them, though. I have definitely improved. Playing this up to tempo has not been a lot of fun. Playing this has.

I've been talking to a really nice boy. He has unknowingly helped me through a lot this summer.