Thursday, September 30, 2010

You can skyrocket away from me & never come back if you find another galaxy

^My future home will have a fort where I can hide and read books and listen to music.

Day Ten: One confession.
Right now, I'm not sure what that would be. So give me some time to think of a really good one.

This week has been pretty good. Today felt like a Friday though, which means I'll wake up tomorrow morning thinking it's Saturday, only to come to the awful realization that I do in fact have school. Along with a physics test and the fitgram. Which is where you have to run (or walk...) a mile, test your flexibility, height, weight etc. Not very fun.

But, this weekend will be the first in awhile in which I'll actually be busy. Saturday is district auditions (I'm still freaking out, but I'm feeling a bit better about them) and Sunday one of my friends convinced me to go to a party for her church with her, which also includes me going to Bible study before. I haven't been to church since I was 5, and I'm not a very religious person, so this will be interesting. I'm also hoping, since there are a ton of kids that go to her church that maybe, you know. A cute boy or two will be there. And please, don't judge me. Because I know you all are thinking "Omgz why y u tryin to pick up boyz at church?!??1!" Well, because the majority of my friends seem to get their boyfriends from church camp. It's not my fault that things happen there. But I'm not going to look for it. I'm hoping I'll just stumble upon it on Sunday, or even eventually. Because I don't like cats enough to be a cat lady.

I'm still considering putting videos on my YouTube account. Covers of songs and such. The only problem is video quality isn't the best on my camera, and I'd have to put it on a stack of books or something since I don't have a tripod. I'll figure it out if I do decide to.

Happy last day of September everyone. Christmas is less than three months away.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

My love burns bright for you with the awkwardness of a thousand nerds.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
  1. :\
  2. :)

"Relationships are messy, and people's feelings get hurt."

The guy from my last post? Yeah, I think he likes me. I'm not sure what to do about it, except to pretend that I'm completely oblivious to his hints when he texts me. Now I'm positive that a relationship is the last thing I need right now. And the guy I used to like? Well, in summary he's a buttface. But what else is new.

This week has been alright. I bought a sketchbook the other day, and I'm hoping that I'll get time to start drawing in it. I love art class, but not the people in it. They irritate me. But, I can't wait to take drawing next year.

District auditions are next week, and I'm flipping out. I'm hoping I'll do okay.

A conversation I had earlier this week;
"Hey, come over here."
"Give me a hug."
"Because you're a creeper."
And then I walked away from him. I call almost every guy a creeper, but he actually is one. Jeez.

Now to end this post with a lame joke;

Two atoms are walking down the street together. The first atom turns and says, “Hey, you just stole an electron from me!”
“Are you sure?” asks the second atom.
To which the first atom replies, “Yeah, I’m positive!”

It made me laugh. :3

Sorry for the really sucky post. :P

Saturday, September 18, 2010

But tell me now, where was my fault in loving you with my whole heart?

Day Eight: Three turn ons.
  1. Having a talent/skill that is unique.
  2. Similar taste in music as me.
  3. Able to play an instrument.

The homecoming dance last week was alright. I felt lonely during it seeing all the couples, but it was alright. Later tonight I'm going to my friends house to watch Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog with a few other friends. I'm not entirely sure what it is, but they've been singing the songs from it nonstop the past week. So I'm having a bad feeling about it.

I also bought "Sigh No More" by Mumford & Sons today at Best Buy after looking at the new iPod nano (it's so freaking small, holy crap). It's pretty good. I was going to buy it the last time I was there, but decided against it because I wasn't entirely too sure. But I'm glad I did.

[Unfortunately, the rest of this post will consist of boys. Proceed with caution.]

There's this boy. And he's nice. I'm happy when I get a text from him or see him in the halls. He's kind of creepy. But I'm terrified of almost anyone touching me, so I don't think he might be all too creepy. And I'm afraid to give him a chance. Because I feel if you're going to go out with someone, you should be physically attracted to them as well. He's not ugly, but, I don't know. Which is shallow, yes, I'll admit that. But isn't it also true? I mean, personality is the #1 thing you should look for in a person, it is. You can't form a meaningful relationship without communication, great conversations. And I know he would be an awesome friend. I'm not sure about a boyfriend though. My friend told me if he asks me out, I should give him a chance. Which I should, but I don't want to lead him on. But yet I am. But I know I shouldn't. Maybe my standards are too high. Maybe I'm just a female dog. Or, maybe I'm just waiting. Maybe I'm just too afraid to go out with him because I just want to wait for someone else. But at the same time, I don't. I don't want to feel alone. But I am. And this makes absolutely no sense.

And on a separate note, what the hell does "Where's Fluffy? ;) " mean?!?

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Don't Give Up

Day Seven: Four turn offs.
  1. Being a creeper.
  2. Not able to play an instrument.
  3. Being obnoxious and loud.
  4. Not liking Radiohead. ;P

Last night I went to the movies with two of my friends and saw Vampires Suck. And it did, indeed, suck. Some parts were funny though, but it was mostly stupid. The Edward character was much hotter than Robert Pattinson though. And the girl who played Becca perfectly portrayed Bella's mannerisms from the real Twilight movie. So yeah, it was alright.

Tonight's the homecoming dance. An hour ago I got back from hobby lobby with one of my friends to pick out fabric and ribbon so she can redesign one of her old dresses. It's suppose to rain tonight. And I don't have a date, but neither do the two friends I went to the movies with last night. I hope everything works out and I don't come home feeling like shit.

Now I'm going to go play Mario Kart Wii, and possibly practice for district/region later. ♥

"Don't make a move, you'll look ridiculous again. You share no interest but it's easy to pretend. Don't start the action it will turn against you soon; no one is going to follow and you'll stand there like a fool."

Monday, September 6, 2010

I feel like I've been issued a challenge.

^The new nano looks pretty cool. It's pointless to have unless you only listen to music (which is what an iPod used to be only used for), but still, it looks pretty cool.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) [I'm just going to use the first letter of their first name, because if anyone I know does find my blog it would be weird and I could just make up some crap];
1. L
2. K
3. M
4. A
5. T

Last night I went to my friends house, and we had a "Beatles Rock Band Party of Beatles Rock Band Awesomeness". Where we, I'm sure you can guess, played Beatles Rock Band for four hours straight, along with eating queso, brownies, and Dr. Pepper. And it was in fact, pure awesomeness. But seriously, it was a lot of fun.

So on my day off from school I continued watching the dubbed version of the animated Lord of the Rings, practiced for district/region, and cleaned my room. 'Twas a good day. Though I still have to watch the Radiohead concert I downloaded the other night.

And to end this post, I give you; Llamas with Hats...3 :D

Friday, September 3, 2010

The road to rejection is better than no road at all.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
  1. Not hugging him back at the plant sale freshman year.
  2. Giving his number to that girl.
  3. Letting my friend talk me into texting this one guy. Because now he thinks I'm a creeper.
  4. Letting myself like him as much as I did.
  5. Letting his talking about his exgirlfriend effect me as much as it did.
  6. Telling my friend how I truly felt at the moment. I was just sad.

Today was, by far, the best day of school. Art was easy, and I didn't feel like hitting the guy next to me for singing obnoxiously and talking to himself, or the creepy freshman across from me that always looks at me. I'll look at him, and he'll either look down quickly or smile. It's like seriously dude, seriously?
I'm positive that I got a 100 on a map quiz in history, and then we watched a video for the rest of the period. And history is one of my favorite classes because it's the only one with a cute boy in it, haha. :)
In orchestra we had to do a 3 octave A minor melodic minor scale/broken thirds for a quiz grade. Which I nailed, even though I was shaking from nervous-ness of playing in front of my section. Plus it's really cold in the orchestra room.
In Physics we did a lab where we had to figure out where to put a cup in front of a desk to get a marble that went down a ramp in it using only equations (Very confusing to explain). We only got one try, and whether we got it in or not basically decided if we would pass or fail. My partner and I were nervous, as we were the first to finish. And some guy came up to us while we were doing it and said "Are you sure that's right? Wanna make sure it'll work? Having any second doubts?" But we got it in. His group didn't. Haha.

I think I'm going to find out more info about this boy from my friend. I want to talk to him, but every time I want to, I tell myself he probably couldn't like me, that I'm not pretty enough, etc. and that it'll just be a waste of my time. Because every time, every time, I'm always rejected. Always.
But hey, if it doesn't work out at least I'll have the annoying guy and creepy freshman. :/

Now I must go watch the animated Lord of the Rings on YouTube, then after watch the dubbed version. So... uhm, bye.
That was an awkward ending.