Saturday, September 18, 2010

But tell me now, where was my fault in loving you with my whole heart?

Day Eight: Three turn ons.
  1. Having a talent/skill that is unique.
  2. Similar taste in music as me.
  3. Able to play an instrument.

The homecoming dance last week was alright. I felt lonely during it seeing all the couples, but it was alright. Later tonight I'm going to my friends house to watch Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog with a few other friends. I'm not entirely sure what it is, but they've been singing the songs from it nonstop the past week. So I'm having a bad feeling about it.

I also bought "Sigh No More" by Mumford & Sons today at Best Buy after looking at the new iPod nano (it's so freaking small, holy crap). It's pretty good. I was going to buy it the last time I was there, but decided against it because I wasn't entirely too sure. But I'm glad I did.

[Unfortunately, the rest of this post will consist of boys. Proceed with caution.]

There's this boy. And he's nice. I'm happy when I get a text from him or see him in the halls. He's kind of creepy. But I'm terrified of almost anyone touching me, so I don't think he might be all too creepy. And I'm afraid to give him a chance. Because I feel if you're going to go out with someone, you should be physically attracted to them as well. He's not ugly, but, I don't know. Which is shallow, yes, I'll admit that. But isn't it also true? I mean, personality is the #1 thing you should look for in a person, it is. You can't form a meaningful relationship without communication, great conversations. And I know he would be an awesome friend. I'm not sure about a boyfriend though. My friend told me if he asks me out, I should give him a chance. Which I should, but I don't want to lead him on. But yet I am. But I know I shouldn't. Maybe my standards are too high. Maybe I'm just a female dog. Or, maybe I'm just waiting. Maybe I'm just too afraid to go out with him because I just want to wait for someone else. But at the same time, I don't. I don't want to feel alone. But I am. And this makes absolutely no sense.

And on a separate note, what the hell does "Where's Fluffy? ;) " mean?!?

3 comments:

Kassandra said...

Isn't where's fluffy from nick and norah's infinite playlist? :P
I don't know what it means in the context your talking about though.

I think I know what you mean, about the boy. And I don't really know anything about him, but maybe you should give him a chance?
I have this thing where I went out with a guy for a week once and it bothered me that he was shorter than me and he was always really awkward and wierd so i dumped him.
I think that was quite rude of me and I don't really know why I wrote all of that out.

natalie said...

Having a similar taste in music is definitely an attractive characteristic!

I don't know if you should give the guy a chance or not... hmmm. :/ I guess it wouldn't hurt, maybe. But as for not wanting to when you're not physically attracted to the guy, well, you can't force yourself to be, so I definitely wouldn't blame you!

Abs said...

take what you will from this, but based off personal experience, i've found that those i'm instantly attracted to physically turn out to be a bunch of asses, while those whom i'm not really attracted to at first i become more physically attracted to them once i find out how awesome they are on the inside. so maybe you should give him a chance. :)