Tuesday, August 31, 2010

"Oh yes, I was so happy that in the emoticon world I would be colon capital d."

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
  1. How much longer until summer 2011?
  2. I'm hungry/tired/thirsty.
  3. Boys are buttfaces.
  4. Why do you have to live so far away?
  5. I hope he's not using me.
  6. I want to drivee.
  7. Various thoughts involving orchestra.

The first week of school went better than I thought it would. I have no idea if I said that in my last post. I might have. And the past two days have gone okay. I had four hours of homework yesterday, and this morning started out badly from waking up late, getting to school late, and freaking out trying to remember everything I could about the Columbian Exchange. But I aced my quiz yesterday in history, and I'm sure I got another great grade on my test today. Now watch me fail it since I said it was easy. :P And art has been going well. I've always loved art classes, and it's been fun so far.

District/Region is going to be so difficult this year. I'm trying out for the symphony orchestra, and holy crap, this music is difficult;

For the first time in awhile I'm excited for my lesson tomorrow so I can start figuring out this nonsense.

One of my friends told me that this had happened to her yesterday, and I wanted to share it with everyone;
She was in Spanish class, and sitting next to this guy. He was good looking. Not "hot" but not "ugly". Anywho, he had asked if she had a boyfriend. Not what her name is, not what her hobbies are, nothing. Just "Do you have a boyfriend?" She does, so of course she said she did, because she's not one to cheat. And he was just like "Oh, alright." Ten minutes later, he asks, "Would you ever cheat on your boyfriend?" Again she was shocked and confused, and she said no. Again he was like, "Oh, alright." When the bell rang they left, him close behind her. He put his arm around her, she shrugged him off. He puller her closer, and he kissed her. She pushed him away, went back to the class, and asked for a seat change.

I just want to know what is going through that boy's mind. I mean, seriously. No means no. He confronted her today, and he was still a loser about that. I'm done with all boys at my school. I can't wait to go off to college. Maybe they'll be less suck-ish.

In other news, there's a really cute boy in my history class. Very cute. That's kind of contradictory what I just said. But that is all.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

"I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him. You, are a twat."

"I believe that everything you said to me meant something at the time, but now it means nothing. I knew this would happen, but it still kind of hurts. I don’t believe you were out to hurt me, I just think things change, feelings change. It was good while it lasted. If you’re happy then I’m happy."

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart;
  1. Play an instrument/sing to me at random times.
  2. Letting me gossip to him and just smile and agree with everything I say.
  3. Kiss me in the pouring rain.
  4. Listen to crappy rap songs with me.
  5. Being more goofy than romantic, but knowing the right things to say at the right times.
  6. Liking to stay home, making dinner, and watching movies.
  7. Making me laugh when no one else can.
  8. Basically just being my best friend.

Does anyone else see the irony in this?

It's a diet coke, that's bacon flavored. My art teacher wanted to see who would remember to go to her website this weekend, and she told us yesterday there would be a link that if we went to it we could get some extra points by saying what it was on Monday, and we would know what it was when we saw it. And that was it. I found it hilarious.

I didn't find a dress last night with my friends, so I'm going to go back out today. If I don't find one I might not go, because I don't really want to go in the first place, and not having one gives me an excuse. But one of my friends is bringing her boyfriend who I haven't liked for various reasons, one of them is unfair to him. So maybe I'll be able to give a second chance. Maybe.

But last night was a lot of fun. I haven't hung out with them in months, and it was good to be able to talk to them for a few hours. I also saw one of my old friends from french class two years ago and her boyfriend at the mall. That was a surprise. I almost attacked her when she gave me a hug because I had no idea who was behind me.

I also realized how "behind" I guess you could say, I am with guys. All of my friends have done a lot of "stuff" [trying to keep my blog PG-13], and I haven't even had my first kiss yet. I told them how I want to just get it over with, and they said that I should wait for someone special. Which is bullcrap. Everyone I've talked to regrets their first kiss and wants to change it. Everyone. So I see nothing special about it, it doesn't really matter. Just something else that makes me feel crappy about myself.

[The video from where the title came from? Click here. I would turn your speakers down for the beginning part though if I were you.]

To end this on a positive note, it's almost fall. Which means winter is almost here. Yess.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

What if you could go back in time, and take all those hours of pain and darkness and replace them with something better?

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
  1. It's very, very difficult for me to remember stuff. I have an awful memory. I can't remember a lot of facts, or quote movies even if I've seen them a thousand times. Sometimes it's hard for me to recall song lyrics even for my favorite songs.
  2. I'm only 5'1", and I most likely won't grow anymore, which I hate. [see #6]
  3. I play guitar and violin; My favorite class is orchestra.
  4. No matter how hot it is in my room, I can't sleep with my door open, and I have to have a blanket on. Because you know, if there's a monster in your room, it can't get you if you have a blanket. :P
  5. Radiohead is my favorite band.
  6. I freak out when people touch me. Like it's an irrational fear. I bit my friend once on her arm when she tried to give me a hug. And I'm small, so most of my friends love to pick me up every chance they get.
  7. I don't want to fall in love. I'd much rather be on my own. But, if I were to find someone I love and who loves me back, I wouldn't be afraid to be in a committed relationship.
  8. I can't see out of my right eye.
  9. I'm very indecisive.

I really want to go on a road trip. With no predetermined destination. To leave this place and just drive somewhere with someone I care about would be so nice. And not worrying about homework, jobs, people we've left behind, anything. Just driving away from everything. I would love that. And I think I know exactly who this person is that I want to do it with.
[I need to figure this s%#t out. And soon.]
Yesterday afternoon my friend drove me and one of our other friends home, stopping at Sonic first. It was fun; we acted like the obnoxious teenagers we are, blasting inappropriate music (with the windows up, haha), making fun of the people we know at school, and discussing how boys are all buttheads. Then after we had to meet back up at school for the beginning of year orchestra meeting, where my friend and I texted the guy she likes off of my phone. [I had his number from the trip last year. He thinks I'm a creeper now. :/]
This year we're going to Corpus Christi for our orchestra trip. It's still so far away, but I'm excited.
Tomorrow night I'll most likely go dress shopping with two of my friends. Which I'm unsure if I really want to go, but no one's bringing a date so I won't feel left out like last year. Homecomeing is only two? weeks away. So this is the last weekend we'll be able to go shopping.
Uhm, yeah. This is a pretty awesome guitar;

Monday, August 23, 2010

"You're weird." "Sorry." "No, that was a compliment."

I promise, that one day, everything's going to be better for you.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
  1. I miss you.
  2. I wish we talked more often/I wish you were here.
  3. I wish you cared.
  4. I hate strongly dislike you.
  5. I wasted so much time on you, and you don't even know.
  6. I can't believe you still spend more time with your boyfriend than with me and all your other friends. We miss you.
  7. I wish I had gotten my first kiss over with with you; but a small part of me says that it was good I didn't. Even though I knew it would mean absolutely nothing.
  8. Stop creeping on my friend. She doesn't like you, just leave her the f%#& alone.
  9. Do you like me? Cause I think I like you (about to text my friend about this one in a few minutes to see if she agrees with my theory, maybe before I finish this post. So I will elaborate this at the bottom*)
  10. You, are such a creeper.

I would love a MacBook ^. Or any new laptop. My laptop is burning my leg right now.

My first day of school went better than I thought it would. My teachers are amazing, and I have friends in all of my classes except art. They're mostly immature freshmen girls who gossip about who's with who, and who did what. Which is okay with me, because I want to relax in art [I can easily ignore them]. And, because it's first period, I can do just that. Hang out with my friends before school, start the day with art class, and the rest of the day will be so easy. The first half of the year will be awesome.

*This is the conversation my friend and I just had.
Me: Quick question. When you see M#%& in the halls, or in orchestra, does he ever stand behind someone and say their name creepily? Like he does to me?
Her: No lol
Me: You know what I'm talking about, right? Why does he only do this to me? D: I was walking to the orchestra room after school, and he was in front of me, but he had his swag on or something while he was texting, so then I got in front of him. Then he looked down and said "Victoriaa" like he usually does in a deep voice, and smiles. And he only does this to me.
Her: Lol idk
Me: You're suppose to know these things.
That wasn't much help. I think he does though, and I honestly, rationally thought this through. With logic this time, not emotions. This isn't just some random, "Oh, he's cute, I'm going to make myself believe he likes me because I want to get over him and waste more of my time on a boy blaaahh." Because it makes sense, and I have thought this for the past two years. I think he says my name when he's near me to let me know he's there, like he wants attention from me. Because he never does do this to anyone else. And on the orchestra trip freshmen year, he made me play a game while we were at the arcade. Specifically me. It wasn't
"Hey, someone come over here and play this with me." But
"Victoria, get your butt over here now I want to play this with youu."
I don't know. Gahh, boys suck. But I did just get this weird feeling where I know I don't need a boy to make me happy, I just need my friends. That was actually quite strange to be honest, I have no idea where that came from. It was just all of a sudden, bam, hit me. But it's true, and I know that. But like I said in my last post, if he asks me, I'd be more than happy to. But I won't worry too much about this.

Maybe, I'll ask him to the Sadie Hawkins dance this year. And say just as friends. Because all of my other friends are going. And it might be fun.

"You're smooth, and good with talking. You're going with me to the Sadie Hawkins."

Why do I always promise I won't talk about boys on here anymore, and then the next post I do? Oh well.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Save an egg, crack a smile.

This will not be one of those posts where I apologise for being gone for almost a month, or promise I'll post more often even though I already know I can't keep up with this. Because this post will have meaning. For this first time in awhile. :3

To start this off I would just like to say, Isn't that the coolest shirt ever?? I must find it and buy it.

I was thinking about deleting this blog, making another, and posting the link on here so the few people who do read this can still do so. Which I may do. Maybe either tonight or tomorrow or sometime during the next few days. Maybe not delete it, but create a different account. Or I might just completely change the look of it so it can at least look like a new blog. Which sounds less complicated and less effort than making a new one. So I'll probably do that after I'm done writing this.
Speaking of tomorrow, tomorrow is the first day of school. Which I am so thankful for. I love having a few weeks off from doing work, effing up my sleeping schedule, and talking to people I never can during the school year. But after awhile it just gets so boring. I did a few fun things this summer, like walking in the pouring rain, going to see Dinner for Schmucks with one of my guy friends, texting some creepy kid who always started off a conversation by calling me "pretty girl", having my best friend sleep over at my house (where we called her boyfriend and played truth or dare over the phone with him), and practicing guitar until my fingers nearly bled.
I've also been wanting to make a YouTube account and start doing vlogs. It might be a bit easier to just say what I feel and not write them down, and I would probably do it more often. Or even make some fun videos. But there are two problems with this idea:
  1. I almost never do anything exciting.
  2. I despise the sound of my voice, so I'm not sure how I would edit them if I needed to, let alone watch them in the future.
So, that wouldn't really work out. But hey, you never know.
I really like my school schedule for this year. One of my friends and I have the same class, and I'm taking art. I have to also go to the counselor to figure out a 4th period class for next semester, so I'll have to do that. Maybe I'll take psychology. I've always been interested in seeing how the mind works and whatnot. So if a music career doesn't work out, maybe I'll be a psychologist, who knows.
My friends want me to go homecoming dress shopping with them again this year. Which I wasn't planning on going to the homecoming dance, but I guess now I am. And we also planned on going to all of the football games this year. Every. Single. One. I want to make this year the best one so far. Hanging with my friends more, and just being happier would be nice. And no more boys. Unless some guy wants to hang out or go to the movies, I won't waste my time anymore. I'm surprisingly happy that things didn't work out with me and him. Now that I think about it, it wouldn't have been good for either of us.
For this school year I would also love to focus on my grades more and be less lazy. I'm an awful procrastinator. But I want to change that this year. Starting off by posting more often. Haha, I'm just kidding :) ...But seriously.

To end this post, I give you the best parody of 'California Gurls' by Katy Perry ever [click here to see it, because when I try to embed it, it looks funny with the template].

Actually, I lied. I have one more thing to add; So I finished typing this, and I thought to myself, "Oh, I need to add a picture to the top first. Maybe I'll redesign my blog first, then come back and finish this up later." But no. What happened to the old templates? Jeez, that just really surprised me. So weird. And I just looked out the window and it's cloudy outside. That makes me happy. Okay I'm done now. Bye ♥

edit 8:53 pm;
I found this on Tumblr, and instead of doing it there, I'm thinking of doing it on here sometime during the week so I can look back on it one day:

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.