my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me

"It's crazy, right?
to love someone who's hurt you.
It's even crazier to think that

someone who hurt you loves you."

It's only been one week. And so freaking much has changed.

Saturday night I slept over at one of my friend's house, and him and I started texting. She said it would be a swell idea if I at least "hinted" that I liked him while texting him. He figured it out obviously. I really wasn't too subtle. :P But the amazing thing is that he likes me back, which is a first. We're going to see a movie next weekend, same night as the sadie hawkins dance, haha.

So he likes me. He told me he does, but he also said he doesn't want a relationship right now. I don't get it. If anyone could explain it to me that would be great. I think he just doesn't want to ruin the friendship, which I understand 100%. But I feel that for it to ruin it one of us would have to do something incredibly crazy ass stupid. I don't know, maybe I'm just upset over it. I thought it would be enough to know that he likes me. But now that I know I want more. Is that so wrong? He's the sweetest guy I know. And I think I'm willing to wait. We'll see how that goes though.

So how come when you like someone, they don't like you back. When someone likes you, you don't like them back/they piss you off so easily that you want to kick them in the balls every time they text you "hi :)" [Yes, even the smiley face. Every. fricken. time.] And in the rare occasion, when you both like each other, something has to get in the way to screw it up. I hate it so much. Aaah.

The Outsiders is on right now. Kind of random, yes. But I love that book.

And they just played "No Surprises" by Radiohead on American Idol. Totally made my night.

That's really it, this post was sort of pointless. Oh well, too da loo kangaroo (:

"So won't you kill me, so I die happy?"