"I can watch and not take part, where I end and where you start. Where you, you left me alone. You left me alone."
I have no idea why these all have been Radiohead..
I slept terribly, again, last night. I couldn't sleep, so I was up until around 5, then fell asleep and woke up around 11. Which is fine, I did get at least 6 hours sleep. And, surprisingly, I'm not all that tired. Though by 8 I'll probably crash on the couch listening to my iPod.
I'm repainting my room this week. The color that's there now is what came with the house, and it really looks like shit. Yeah, it's that bad. We painted a spot on the wall the color to see how it would look when it dries. And I can't help but stare at it every five minutes; it's irritating. I reread this and looked up at it again. :P
I haven't written much in awhile. I just haven't felt like it. Since I found out I really have become numb, and nothing phases me anymore. Like, if someone hurts just me, I don't give a crap. I know that's bad, I just really don't care. And I realize that there's no one in my life (besides y'all, you guys are pretty awesome (;) who I can tell everything to. Absolutely no one. No one really cares about me, or what happens to me. No one here, at least.
I just want to know why. Why did that have to happen?
I'm going down to San Antonio in two weeks for an orchestra competition. I can't wait, it'll be nice to get out of town for awhile. We're going to play what we did for UIL, so we should sound pretty awesome.