please make up your mind, i'd do anything for you

"Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being along never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait."

Tomorrow I will be packing when I get home from school to get ready for the trip, then we'll be leaving Thursday morning. It seems so unreal, it's hard to believe we're really going to san francisco! I wanted to type this up now because I wanted to post one last time before leaving, and I have no idea if I'll have time tomorrow. I promise to make a long post and comment on everyone's blogs when I get back. :)

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