Angels on the Moon

"Death is peaceful, easy. Life is much harder."

I don't even know what's happening anymore, I really do feel like shit. Nothing could, and will never happen between us, and there's really no one else that I would date here, they're all egotistical, moronic bastards (thank you rhymezone :P) who really couldn't show love for another human being if they tried. And yes, I have looked around, that's what I did all of last week. There is one guy, but of course he already has a girlfriend. I just want to move far away from here, I don't care if I ever see him again, or not. Living here is hurting me much more than helping, and my parents choose not to see it.

I've become mentally unstable, emotional, and only slightly anorexic, (Though I'm not really, I still eat, just enough but not much, so it's okay) and I haven't slept right in weeks. Nothing is going right, and just want someone here with me, whom I know will never leave me. Someone to hold, and be strong for me instead of me pretending to be for everyone else.

In biology we're learning about "survival of the fittest" and whatnot. What I've really learned the most is I'm not built to live here. I need to live somewhere cold, and cloudy. I may not survive this environment for much longer.

*I promise I'll comment everyone back tomorrow, I'm kind of tired right now and just don't feel like it.*

Peace.

Packt Like Sardines In A Crushd Tin Box

"After years of waiting nothing came. And you realize you're looking, looking in the wrong place."

There's not really much to blog about. I took a quiz on James' blog, and just had to post the results, they were so freakin' accurate:

I took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Is extremely determined to make her presence known..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

So not much has been going on lately. Easter's tomorrow, and I have no plans at all. I'll probably just stay home and go through my iPod.

Orchestra has been fine, Solo/Ensemble is in a week or two, and we have one last concert in May. So not much is going on with that either.

Eh, I guess that's it. Happy Easter!


Peace. :P

Mad World

"And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad. The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had. I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take. When people run in circles it's a very very, mad world, mad world."

Today wasn't too bad, it only kinda sucked. I realized awhile ago that nothing would and could never happen between "us" (him and I). So I decided to like someone else, which I did for awhile. I flirted, it seemed like he flirted back and liked me. Only today, did he mention that he had a girlfriend. Yep. Their "one month anniversary" is coming up. Ughh.

So yeah, for now I've basically given up. Only for now though, until I find someone great. Which I feel like I need, I came home today and felt soo lonely, it was ridiculous. I got to see my friend again after 5 weeks though, and that was a ton of fun. I didn't realize how much I missed her until today.

I did poorly on my geometry test, I got an 82. I think I did okay though on my biology test, I better have with all of the studying I did last night.

The plant sale for orchestra is the next three weekends, I think. That should be a ton of fun. <--sarcasm. :P I plan on signing up whenever he does, so maybe it will make it just a bit better. Woah, I just re-read that, and realized that it sounds something like a creeper would say. Heh?

I should probably shut up now.

Peace. :/