Saturday, May 2, 2009

Such Great Heights


"I'm looking at you through the glass; don't know how much time has passed. Oh God, it feels like forever, but no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head." ~Stone Sour, Through Glass

Blech. I'm sick, it's so gross. I don't have Swine Flu, but I have a terrible sore throat, and I can't breathe out of my nose. I didn't go to school yesterday, thankfully. But, because of the Swine Flu, there's no school for next week. And we don't have to make it up, so awesome.

"The only thing worse than a boy who hates you - a boy who loves you." ~The Book Thief.

Also, because of the Swine Flu, we had to move our concert and banquet for orchestra up a week. Which is good, because I still have to find a dress. Oh joy. And we aren't allowed to work at the plant sale this weeked, only our parents could. I wouldn't have been allowed to go anyway, me being sick and all.

"It's like I'm drowning in my own darkness, my own misery. I just want to swim back up to the surface, to finally be able to breathe again. Though I might need some help, I will find someone, one day. I just hope I don't drag them down with me, deeper and deeper into the water.."

I have no idea what I could possibly do next week. Though we are off from school, we're not allowed to leave home. Still fun? Nah, not much. I will be able to sleep though, I am so tired right now. All my dreams have been really clouded, like I have no idea what's happening in them. I can remember having a dream, just not what it's about, it's so frustrating.

"How do you feel? That is the question, but I forget, you don't expect an easy answer. When something like a soul becomes initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes, you can't expect a bit of hope. So while you're outside looking in, describing what you see, remember what you're staring at is me."

Quizzes [blogthings.com]:

When you think of love, you think of committing to one person for the rest of your life.In love, you see things how they could be. You are wrapped up in your own dreams.If you are in love, you like to keep it a secret for a while. It feels more special that way.You are patient in love. You are willing to wait for the right person and the right time.

Life has required you to go your own way and do your own thing.You've been taught to rely on yourself. You don't feel comfortable relying on others.You are highly motivated and aggressive. You have no problem getting things done and getting what you want.You feel like you have to look out for yourself, because no one else is.

"I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images, and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned. I have to speculate that God himself did make us into corresponding shapes, like puzzle pieces from the clay. True, it may seem like a stretch, but its thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away. When I am missing you to death."

^The song Such Great Heights, was originally done by Iron & Wine, but there is also a cover of it by The Postal Service, both of which are on Playlist.com. I reccomend looking them both up, both are very good.

Peace. :/

*EDIT: Everyone thinks that I was the one with swine flu who closed the whole dstrict down. Ugh.*

5 comments:

n a t a l i e said...

That's awesome that you don't have to make up the missed school, but not so awesome that you have to stay home the whole time because of swine flu... Thankfully the only reports of it in my state were just false alarms :/

I hate when you remember having a dream, and can almost sort of picture it in your head, but you just can't remember it. It's so annoying!

I'd heard the Postal Service cover of Such Great Heights, but never actually heard the original until today on your blog. So thanks (:

I hope you feel better soon!

BlackRoseBend said...

Swine flu, right.
;/
Hey, how r u?
Btw, where do you find the amazing photos on this blog?

Cursed♪♫ said...
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Cursed♪♫ said...

hey!
Love the first quote! It's awesome! :)
The the pictures too god. I love the guitars color!
Get well soon!
And yea, I passed :)

James said...

Swine flu is out of control. Its just a ploy by the governess because only 5 confirmed deaths have happened. They publicize it, and they allow the economy to get jump started. And, ur awesome. Don't forget that.