What if you could go back in time, and take all those hours of pain and darkness and replace them with something better?

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

1. It's very, very difficult for me to remember stuff. I have an awful memory. I can't remember a lot of facts, or quote movies even if I've seen them a thousand times. Sometimes it's hard for me to recall song lyrics even for my favorite songs.
2. I'm only 5'1", and I most likely won't grow anymore, which I hate. [see #6]
3. I play guitar and violin; My favorite class is orchestra.
4. No matter how hot it is in my room, I can't sleep with my door open, and I have to have a blanket on. Because you know, if there's a monster in your room, it can't get you if you have a blanket. :P
5. Radiohead is my favorite band.
6. I freak out when people touch me. Like it's an irrational fear. I bit my friend once on her arm when she tried to give me a hug. And I'm small, so most of my friends love to pick me up every chance they get.
7. I don't want to fall in love. I'd much rather be on my own. But, if I were to find someone I love and who loves me back, I wouldn't be afraid to be in a committed relationship.
8. I can't see out of my right eye.
9. I'm very indecisive.

I really want to go on a road trip. With no predetermined destination. To leave this place and just drive somewhere with someone I care about would be so nice. And not worrying about homework, jobs, people we've left behind, anything. Just driving away from everything. I would love that. And I think I know exactly who this person is that I want to do it with.
[I need to figure this s%#t out. And soon.]
Yesterday afternoon my friend drove me and one of our other friends home, stopping at Sonic first. It was fun; we acted like the obnoxious teenagers we are, blasting inappropriate music (with the windows up, haha), making fun of the people we know at school, and discussing how boys are all buttheads. Then after we had to meet back up at school for the beginning of year orchestra meeting, where my friend and I texted the guy she likes off of my phone. [I had his number from the trip last year. He thinks I'm a creeper now. :/]
This year we're going to Corpus Christi for our orchestra trip. It's still so far away, but I'm excited.
Tomorrow night I'll most likely go dress shopping with two of my friends. Which I'm unsure if I really want to go, but no one's bringing a date so I won't feel left out like last year. Homecomeing is only two? weeks away. So this is the last weekend we'll be able to go shopping.
Uhm, yeah. This is a pretty awesome guitar;

"You're weird." "Sorry." "No, that was a compliment."

I promise, that one day, everything's going to be better for you.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. I miss you.
2. I wish we talked more often/I wish you were here.
3. I wish you cared.
4. I hate strongly dislike you.
5. I wasted so much time on you, and you don't even know.
6. I can't believe you still spend more time with your boyfriend than with me and all your other friends. We miss you.
7. I wish I had gotten my first kiss over with with you; but a small part of me says that it was good I didn't. Even though I knew it would mean absolutely nothing.
8. Stop creeping on my friend. She doesn't like you, just leave her the f%#& alone.
9. Do you like me? Cause I think I like you (about to text my friend about this one in a few minutes to see if she agrees with my theory, maybe before I finish this post. So I will elaborate this at the bottom*)
10. You, are such a creeper.

I would love a MacBook ^. Or any new laptop. My laptop is burning my leg right now.

My first day of school went better than I thought it would. My teachers are amazing, and I have friends in all of my classes except art. They're mostly immature freshmen girls who gossip about who's with who, and who did what. Which is okay with me, because I want to relax in art [I can easily ignore them]. And, because it's first period, I can do just that. Hang out with my friends before school, start the day with art class, and the rest of the day will be so easy. The first half of the year will be awesome.

*This is the conversation my friend and I just had.
Me: Quick question. When you see M#%& in the halls, or in orchestra, does he ever stand behind someone and say their name creepily? Like he does to me?
Her: No lol
Me: You know what I'm talking about, right? Why does he only do this to me? D: I was walking to the orchestra room after school, and he was in front of me, but he had his swag on or something while he was texting, so then I got in front of him. Then he looked down and said "Victoriaa" like he usually does in a deep voice, and smiles. And he only does this to me.
Her: Lol idk
Me: You're suppose to know these things.
That wasn't much help. I think he does though, and I honestly, rationally thought this through. With logic this time, not emotions. This isn't just some random, "Oh, he's cute, I'm going to make myself believe he likes me because I want to get over him and waste more of my time on a boy blaaahh." Because it makes sense, and I have thought this for the past two years. I think he says my name when he's near me to let me know he's there, like he wants attention from me. Because he never does do this to anyone else. And on the orchestra trip freshmen year, he made me play a game while we were at the arcade. Specifically me. It wasn't
"Hey, someone come over here and play this with me." But
"Victoria, get your butt over here now I want to play this with youu."
I don't know. Gahh, boys suck. But I did just get this weird feeling where I know I don't need a boy to make me happy, I just need my friends. That was actually quite strange to be honest, I have no idea where that came from. It was just all of a sudden, bam, hit me. But it's true, and I know that. But like I said in my last post, if he asks me, I'd be more than happy to. But I won't worry too much about this.

Maybe, I'll ask him to the Sadie Hawkins dance this year. And say just as friends. Because all of my other friends are going. And it might be fun.

"You're smooth, and good with talking. You're going with me to the Sadie Hawkins."

Why do I always promise I won't talk about boys on here anymore, and then the next post I do? Oh well.

Save an egg, crack a smile.

This will not be one of those posts where I apologise for being gone for almost a month, or promise I'll post more often even though I already know I can't keep up with this. Because this post will have meaning. For this first time in awhile. :3

To start this off I would just like to say, Isn't that the coolest shirt ever?? I must find it and buy it.

I was thinking about deleting this blog, making another, and posting the link on here so the few people who do read this can still do so. Which I may do. Maybe either tonight or tomorrow or sometime during the next few days. Maybe not delete it, but create a different account. Or I might just completely change the look of it so it can at least look like a new blog. Which sounds less complicated and less effort than making a new one. So I'll probably do that after I'm done writing this.
Speaking of tomorrow, tomorrow is the first day of school. Which I am so thankful for. I love having a few weeks off from doing work, effing up my sleeping schedule, and talking to people I never can during the school year. But after awhile it just gets so boring. I did a few fun things this summer, like walking in the pouring rain, going to see Dinner for Schmucks with one of my guy friends, texting some creepy kid who always started off a conversation by calling me "pretty girl", having my best friend sleep over at my house (where we called her boyfriend and played truth or dare over the phone with him), and practicing guitar until my fingers nearly bled.
I've also been wanting to make a YouTube account and start doing vlogs. It might be a bit easier to just say what I feel and not write them down, and I would probably do it more often. Or even make some fun videos. But there are two problems with this idea:

1. I almost never do anything exciting.
2. I despise the sound of my voice, so I'm not sure how I would edit them if I needed to, let alone watch them in the future.

So, that wouldn't really work out. But hey, you never know.
I really like my school schedule for this year. One of my friends and I have the same class, and I'm taking art. I have to also go to the counselor to figure out a 4th period class for next semester, so I'll have to do that. Maybe I'll take psychology. I've always been interested in seeing how the mind works and whatnot. So if a music career doesn't work out, maybe I'll be a psychologist, who knows.
My friends want me to go homecoming dress shopping with them again this year. Which I wasn't planning on going to the homecoming dance, but I guess now I am. And we also planned on going to all of the football games this year. Every. Single. One. I want to make this year the best one so far. Hanging with my friends more, and just being happier would be nice. And no more boys. Unless some guy wants to hang out or go to the movies, I won't waste my time anymore. I'm surprisingly happy that things didn't work out with me and him. Now that I think about it, it wouldn't have been good for either of us.
For this school year I would also love to focus on my grades more and be less lazy. I'm an awful procrastinator. But I want to change that this year. Starting off by posting more often. Haha, I'm just kidding :) ...But seriously.

To end this post, I give you the best parody of 'California Gurls' by Katy Perry ever [click here to see it, because when I try to embed it, it looks funny with the template].

Actually, I lied. I have one more thing to add; So I finished typing this, and I thought to myself, "Oh, I need to add a picture to the top first. Maybe I'll redesign my blog first, then come back and finish this up later." But no. What happened to the old templates? Jeez, that just really surprised me. So weird. And I just looked out the window and it's cloudy outside. That makes me happy. Okay I'm done now. Bye ♥

edit 8:53 pm;
I found this on Tumblr, and instead of doing it there, I'm thinking of doing it on here sometime during the week so I can look back on it one day:

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.