"Halloween? More like HalloWIN."

This weekend has been alright. Friday I saw Easy A with the guy that I've been texting a lot. When I got home I knew that I really didn't like him. He was just rude, obnoxious. This may seem mean, but I'd rather have 27 cats. I don't know why, but I was so upset I called the guy I used to like and talked to him. We hadn't talked in awhile, but he made me feel a lot better. Unfortunately that was the highlight of my night.

On Saturday I went to the Orchestra Halloween Party. My friend and I dressed up as salt and pepper shakers. Some of the other costumes there; Pikachu, Bob the Builder, Edward Cullen, a tourist, Mario, a hobbit, Eowyn from Lord of the Rings, and a Twilight fan girl. I love orchestra kids.

Today I played Pocket Frogs on my iPod and watched A Haunting on discovery channel for most of the day. I think I had homework to do. Oh well.

This is a really crappy post. So here's one of the cutest pictures ever to make up for it;

It's good to be alive in such a small world, all curled up with a book to read.

[This was written last Sunday, and I never finished it. So this would have been part of last week's post:]

Sunday, 10.17.10;

This weekend has been incredibly busy. Saturday was all-region auditions, and today I stayed in my room doing homework and working on an art project all day. Which is turning out really nice [Which, by the way, I got a 100 on. :D ].
Friday night I went to see The Social Network with two of my friends. After, we sat in the back of one of their pickup trucks listening to a crappy radio station. It helped me to keep my mind off region for the night, which I feel helped me a bit.
Since I was sick last week, I still had a headache for the auditions. Add a lot of screeching, high, out of tune notes before I had to play made it much more difficult for me. I could not hear anything, and I felt tone deaf from the pounding in my head. All in all I think I did alright. I'll know tomorrow if I made it or not. [I did not, but I'm glad I didn't. That music was difficult, and I really don't feel like learning even more of it and putting on a concert.]

And, that's as far as I got. Now onto this weekend. I'm using names, because this will just be so confusing if I don't;

Friday was half day since we had midterms this week. My friends and I went to Chik fil a for lunch, but Lauren and I were the first to get there, and sat alone for like 20 minutes. We had already ordered by the time Alyssa and Mercedes (the ones in the pickup truck, from the movies last Friday night) got there. There were some girls from school that a few of my friends didn't want to get seen by (ah, crazy high school drama), so they went out to their car to go through the drive thru while Lauren and I went back out to her car. We decided to go meet at a park to eat lunch. Mercedes and Alyssa finally got there about 15 minutes later, and we sat in the back of her truck eating our lunch and listening to music. Then, about 30 minutes after that, Natalie and Holly showed up. We walked to the playground after that, and played hide and seek. Two of my friends were wearing white pants for twin day, Lauren and Holly, and it was going to rain soon, so they drove back to their houses to change. Before they got back, the remaining four of us, Mercedes, Alyssa, Natalie, and I, played a round of hide and seek and talked. One of them used to be my closest friend, but we're starting to drift apart with time. But we had a chance to have a quick chat while the other two talked. Mostly about colleges and her boyfriend (and my lack of one, haha), but I felt better that we got the chance to talk.

The other two came back, but not before kidnapping one of our other friends, Romer (that's not his real name, just what we call him). Natalie and I chased him around the playground when we saw him. Unfortunately we're short, and he's tall and in track. After we hung out, the seven of us headed over to Sonic. Mercedes, Alyssa, and I were talking about "inappropriate things" while Romer was walking over to our car. Which was the best. Conversation. Evar.

After Sonic Lauren drove me home, and I walked from my house to Alyssa's so me, her, and Merc could hang out. Merc texted the guy who likes me about balls from my cell, making him think it was me (soccer balls, but she of course made it sound like something else, haha), and we walked through the woods near Alyssa's house while it was raining.

Saturday I went to the plant sale and worked all day. But, it was the best plant sale thus far. It was pouring rain, so Lauren and I got to jump around looking like idiots playing in the rain. Lauren, Romer, Matt, and I sat in the back of Lauren's car for awhile, until it started lightning and the tornado sirens went off. We had to jump out and run to the other side of the school, outside, while there was lightning, thunder, and tornado sirens going off around us. One of the scariest moments of my life. We waited in the school for 20 minutes until it was over. When it was safe to go back outside we sat back in Lauren's truck, since no customers were going to show up for awhile. We drove back to Sonic, Lauren driving, and Matt, Romer, and I praying for our lives sitting on the floor in the very back (We had the seats down so we could all sit in a circle and talk). Lauren was hydroplaning most of the way there, and Matt was screaming how Lauren was a bad driver and reciting prayers. It was hilarious.

After the plant sale, Matt drove Romer home. But Lauren and I, being the creepers that we are, followed them to Romer's house. We played in the rain for a few minutes, then went back to Lauren's house after trying to find Matt's, because we knew what his car looked like and the general area of where he lived. After failing we went to Lauren's and were soaked, so Romer wore a pair of her sweatpants that looked like capris on him, and they were pink and orange. Oh, the things we do to him. :) We happened to be on facebook, on Matt's profile for some weird reason, and saw he had his address in his info. So we ran to Lauren's car, found his house, and had Romer go ding dong ditch his house. But as he was running we saw his dad walk past the window near the front so before he could ring the doorbell he ran back to the car and Lauren sped off. We found a station on the radio that played "rave music" (Lauren and I went back to it today, and it played Russian polka music. It was strange) and ate at Sonic. Again.

Today, I worked at the plant sale again with Lauren, Mercedes, and Matt, and other orch dorks. Not much to blog about besides Lauren, Merc and I going to Sonic again, and goofing around. After the three of us creeped again, Lauren came over to my house for dinner, left about two hours ago, and I've been typing this out since. She texted the guy that likes me from her phone, and asked him why he didn't confirm any plans with me. He said he was going to text me and make plans for next weekend. I'm surprisingly excited.

Such a good weekend to end the first nine weeks of school. I hope the week turns out great as "glorious".

"Here's the story of a girl who grew up lost and lonely. Thinking love was fairytale, and trouble was made only for me. Even in the darkness every color can be found, and every day of rain brings water flowing to things growing in the ground."

another night, another dream wasted on you.

Lots of boy stories to be told today. That's all this post will consist of;

1. I had a dream about orchestra room guy last night. Is it true that when you dream about someone it means that person went to bed thinking about you? I mean, I didn't go to school yesterday. Maybe he really was thinking about me, wondering where I was. I'm hoping he was, yet I'm not. I really need to move the f#@& on. If that's true though, then he must dream about me every night, haha.
2. I had to go into school early today to work on an art project. I got there and sat down in the seat opposite of my assigned one during class. This guy that I find kind of cute [I would so go out with him if asked haha :) ] came in to work on his too. Now, during class, he sits on the other side of the room, but facing me. This morning I was facing the other side of the classroom than usual, and he sat at a different table on the side that faced me. He was facing me. His normal seat was open. A ton of other seats that weren't facing me were also open. Crazy random happenstance? I think not. He has looked at me before and smiled, although only because he probably thinks I'm mental. But maybe he finds me somewhat attractive? Maybe. I hope so, 'cause that would be nice. We also talked. Kind of. We were in the art supply closet (get you mind out of the gutter) and he asked me where the plastic wrap was, even though it was right in the middle of the cart in plain sight. Maybe he was just oblivious, or maybe he wanted to talk to me. Hmm? Also, he knocked over some paint and I was like "Good job". And that was it. This is why I don't have a boyfriend, I'm just too damn awkward.
3. I saw the guy I was suppose to hang out with on Saturday today. And he actually looked kinda sorta just a tad bit cute. Just a little. Not that I was looking or anything. My friend and I were looking up our PSAT rooms and we was standing with a girl next to the paper. Just happened to be there. I said hi. He looked happy to see me. Eh.

"I still believe it's you and me 'til the end of time. When we collide we come together; if we don't we'll always be apart. I'll take a bruise, I know you're worth it. When you hit me, hit me hard."

You belong with me, not swallowed in the sea.

You know what's stupid? I've been sick for the past few days, and I took today off from school. I was hoping to be able to take tomorrow off as well, but I have to take the stupid PSAT tomorrow. And, I had to pay to take it, so I really can't miss it. Aaahhhh.

The first plant sale was Saturday, and it was fun. Not many people came, but the ones that did bought a lot of flats [One person bought about 20. It was insane]. It mostly consisted of me and my friend standing at the corner holding up signs, finding someone who would go with me that night to make it seem less date-like, and sitting on the ground hoping that someone would show up. That someone never did.

Region is Saturday. I haven't been practicing because I've been too weak, so I'm hoping I'll do alright. By now I don't really care, I've done all that I can.

I didn't go on that date-thing Saturday night. I think even if i wasn't sick I wouldn't have gone anyway. And I hadn't found anyone else to go anyway. I realized I don't like the boy. He's just too nice, and it gets on my nerves. I want someone special. And I'm sure he will be for someone else, he's just not my kind of guy.
Maybe it's also because he's not anything like him.

Wish me luck for Saturday. :3

if it still hurts, you still care.

The field trip was good. We went to a concert hall and listened to an orchestra, then headed over to the science museum to eat lunch and watch a movie about undersea creatures. [Under the Sea] It was in a dome, and it was pretty neat. Jim Carrey did the narration for it, but it didn't really sound like him. My friends and I creeped on some poor guy that's in the orchestra, and that's really all that was exciting. Don't get me wrong, it was a blast. But not really much to post about.

I have a date-type-thing Saturday night. With the guy that keeps on texting me. I'm still unsure about him. But I'll give him a chance. Luckily, I'm sick, so if he does try to make a move or something, I can be all like "Dude, no. I'm sick, I don't want to get you sick" instead of "Eew. No dude, just no." Because I don't know if I want to. I had a dream where we kissed though, a long time ago, sometime during the summer. But I still don't know [After trying to type up this post for nearly two hours, I feel even worse. I probably won't be able to go].

"People don't look at your personality first. People judge you automatically by your looks and then try to get to know your personality. But the second they don't like your looks, they don't get to know you. That's how reality is."

Wish me luck for tomorrow night. :3
[If I go, that is.]

I can't take my mind off you 'til I find somebody new

My last post was my 100th. :)

Something really good happened today.
After we sight read in orchestra, we had some free time. There's this room in the back of the orchestra room that has a computer in it. He was using that computer to type up an essay, and he was alone in there. I had a lot of homework, and everyone kept talking to me and asking questions, so I decided to man up, walk in there, and ask him if he would mind if I worked in there too. He said he didn't. I sat down. Now, let me just say that he liked me, I liked him. Then he just stopped liking me after 8 months. We never went out or anything. He told me after those eight months we just weren't compatible. I don't feel like that's the truth, but whatever. There's nothing I can do about it. But, I can't seem to get over him, so I've been ignoring him in the halls and trying not to text him to try to move on. Which has been an epic fail. But we sat together while we did homework, and talked for a little bit. He played some music on his iPod, and it was really, really nice. Easily one of my favorite parts of this year so far, even though it was for a short time and probably meant nothing to him. But it easily made my week.

[I realized something after typing this up; he has my tumblr url, which links to my blogger. I really hope he doesn't read this. If he does, oh well. But he doesn't go on tumblr anymore. Hopefully.]

Anyway, the orchestra concert went very well last night. I was surprised how good the concert and non varsity orchestras played. And it was just a very good night overall. Before the concert two of my friends and I blasted obnoxious rap music while driving to Kroger, read some birthday/anniversary etc. cards when we got there, and bought some peanut M&M's.

Tomorrow is the field trip for orchestra. Most likely I'll post again tomorrow to write about it. I'm sure something will happen there that's blog-worthy.

I realized what my one confession is for my 10 day challenge thing.
I think some part of me will always like him. Not the him I was just talking about with the orchestra room thing [Well, I don't think I'll ever get over him either, but that's another story altogether.] But the reason I don't really want to out with this one guy who apparently likes me, is because he's not cute. But there's more to that. When I get a boyfriend, I want him to get jealous from his hot-ness. Shallow, yes. But I can't help it. I don't want to go out with anyone, because he might go out with someone too even though he said he doesn't like anyone at his school. And I would get jealous, I know I would. And there would be nothing I could do about it. And if I were to go out with someone, and miss my chance with him, I would always wonder if we would work out or not. I always wonder if he were here or I were there, would he like me, and would we go out? I hope he would. I think if we met we could at least try it. I'm sure we would at least have sex. I'm sure if he still read my blog he would agree with that, haha.

"And so it is the shorter story. No love, no glory, no hero in her skies."

Last note; my friend gave me one of her silly band bracelets. It's suppose to be a rhino, but to me it looks like an obese unicorn.

Here's where we prove all your fairytales wrong.

I'm sitting outside in my backyard right now while typing this up. It's really nice out. This is why I love winter. Summer here gets too hot. But right now, I can sit outside with a sweatshirt on and blog from my iPod. I got this app that lets me put pictures on here, and it makes it much easier to make a post than on the safari app.

This weekend was good, and next week will be pretty busy as well. Monday I'll find out if I made district or not, Tuesday we have our first concert, and Thursday a field trip for orchestra. We're going to a concert hall to hear a professional orchestra, then to a science museum. Plus, we get to miss most of school for the day.

I'm really anxious to hear if I made it or not. I practiced a lot, but I was shaking while I was auditioning. Like I was afraid I was going to have a panic attack shaking. But, a lot of kids sounded like they hadn't touched the music at all. I'm still unsure though. D:

That's really it for now. Talk to you later, alligators.

Edit 8:55 PM; Someone posted the district results on facebook, and I made it!! :D